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Wondering why I'm up so early blogging? Well it's not that I just woke up. It's just that I just came home from work. Yup. Night shift. Vampire Mode. Graveyard shift o what ever you may call it. And here i am.. (nagpupuyat sa umaga) that is if it's possible. XD

On to my entry...

Dear Eyes,

Pls. stop playing tricks on me. I am begging you. @_@

Yours Truly,

Lovefool's Mind

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I know my eyes are tired. But It just doesn't make sense. Last night, saw a familiar face. Just had a glimpse so I had to make sure. I wanted to take a good look. A close up view. When I did finally got the chance to catch up on her, It took a while for my brain to process what I saw. Well, She has hair just like hers, with the same way it's usually tied up. She dressed like her. She even has her eyes. She looked like her, from a distance, and even just from a meter away. I thought I knew her but then my eyes were playing tricks on me. But then I wonder. Was I wrong? Maybe It was her, and she just didn't notice me or maybe she just ignored me. Hmm. I dunno. I know she's not that type who ignores people.. I can't pretty much say anything. All i know is that people do change, even if it takes them an ample amount of time to change.

Another thing, When I arrived at the office last night I really couldn't believe it. Were my eyes still playing tricks on me. It made me ponder for a while, Nobody on the department was rendering overtime yesterday. Except for the big boss. dang! Am i really on the right place? haha. I just had to pinch myself just to make sure I wasn't dreaming.

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Btw, weekend was great. I mean my sunday was. Saturday night was still working day. T_T
I'm thankful for all the blessings. I finally got to meet some new and old friends alike. Had a wonderful afternoon with them at moa. Talked about things, shared ideas experiences and expressed some emotions/feelings.

Talk about blessings, had an unexpected promotion last week. I admit that wasn't the thing I was asking for.  Well, I was asking for time. Time off from work, less overtimes just to focus on the social aspect of my life. Still, God knows what I am needing, and He doesn't give or take something without a reason. I'm thankful for that unexpected raise, a friend says maybe it's for me to have more savings for the next best thing to come.

I just paid my life insurance/mutual funds payment a while ago and then I just realized that I could pay it off without necessarily changing my current lifestyle. It's as if everything was the same except for the additional savings I could use when the right time comes.

Blessings are meant to be shared.

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Got soaked up yesterday. It was raining hard. Had to take a shower as soon as i got home. Had a simple dinner and quickly prepared myself to a good night sleep.

Should have written this entry last night but was not able to. I was too tired and sleepy. I haven't slept for quite a while. And that quite a while was around 32 hrs haha. So you could imagine me like some wilted vegetable on my bed.

Everythings working just that way I like it. I have my social life mostly on sundays. Got to meet new people. New friends. Enjoying everything just the  way it is. Somehow, someway I was able to make that crossover. Just as the preacher for yesterday has been saying, "pagtawid".

Had a blast too with the sunday group. I'm glad atleast most of the members made it for the meet up. Our conversations was entertaining but at the same time meaningful. Conversation revolved and started from faith. Then moved to Life, love, mutual funds, income, idealism, and even touched the topic about nationalism. Haha. It just kept on going and going. Everyone shared their thoughts, ideas and feelings. I was so enlightened and I really had fun. Thank you for such a wonderful sunday afternoon. Thank you such lovely and meaningful conversations. Oh. God Thank you so much.

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Once upon a time, Aristophanes relates, there were gods in the heavens and humans down on earth. But we humans did not look the way we look today. Instead, we each had two heads and four legs and four arms -- a perfect melding, in other words, of two people joined together, seamlessly united into one being. We came in three different gender or sexual variations: male/female meldings, male/male meldings, female/female meldings, depending on what suited each creature the best. Since we each had the perfect partner sewn into the very fabric of our being, we were all happy. Thus, all of us double-headed, eight limbed, perfectly contented creatures moved across the earth much the same way that the plants travel through the heavens -- dreamily, orderly, smoothly. We lacked for nothing; we had no unmet needs, we wanted nobody. There was no strife and no chaos. We were whole.

But in our wholeness, we became overly proud. In our pride, we neglected to worship the gods. The mighty Zeus punished us for our neglect by cutting all the double-headed, eight-limbed, perfectly contented humans in half, thereby creating a world of cruelly severed one-headed, two-legged miserable creatures. In this moment of mass amputation, Zeus inflicted on mankind the most painful of human conditions: the dull and constant sense that we are not quite whole. For the rest of time, humans would be born sensing that there was some missing part - a lost half, which we love almost more than ourselves - and that this missing part was out there someplace, spinning through the universe in the form of another person. We would also be born believing that if only we searched relentlessly enough, we might someday find that vanished half, that other soul.

-- an excerpt from Elizabeth Gilbert's new book.

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So, how would you define such term? For me a long weekend currently does not exist in my vocabulary. It's just a mere illusion. Though it may seem it applies to everyone.. It does not. But then, even though it's been a very busy long weekend, atleast I still got to find time for God, for friends and for myself.

Rough job. Dangerous health status. Eyebags looking like that of JLC. Slow moving. Talking gibberish. Saliva drooling while sleeping.  All symptoms of a dead man walking. Forgive the word but I couldn't really figure out how to describe myself.. Hehe. Oh, I forgot. Hairs sticking out like a broom stick.. forgive me, was never really a fan of combs. XD

Even with all those things happening.. still manage to have a social life. Atleast to hang out or literally chill in a restaurant. Eating heartily and enjoying the company.

Thank you. I really needed that..

First time to use a stethoscope. Got the chance a while ago. I really wanted to be a doctor but that was ages ago. But today, I finally got to hear and feel my own heart beating.. yes, my heart was still beating all right. It feels so nice to hear your own heart beating.. the experience is a must. I mean you should try to hear and feel you heart beat with a stethoscope. Just give yourself a minute or two.. and listen to the sound of your heart beating. Take a deep breath. Inhale and exhale slowly. Relieve your stress. listen to the music of your heart playing.. lub dub.. lub dub.. lub dub..

Be thankful for life. For families, for love ones, for friends, for everything..

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Had another extraordinary sunday at the feast. Coupled with the usual routines plus some challenges along the way. Met new friends and of course i'm keeping them. Well, it feels like the whole world isn't that small anymore. There's so many people to meet, new things to learn, places to explore and blessings to share.

Again, I'd never get tired of going out to PICC on sundays. Besides from the mass and Bo Sanchez's talks, I'd say there are a lot of things, events and people who would just make me wanna wake up early sunday morning and be there every sunday. Childrens, servants, friends and mentors. They're just the few I could think off. For event's there are specific talks, seminars, team buildings and outreach programs to grab for.

It's the happiest place on earth. =)

It's been a while since I wrote something emotionally serious. I've been thinking, I guess it's about time again to write something new.. a new page of my life.. so here goes nothing.. or should i say everything. :D

qouted from an old old old scroll from the past.

"Nytee. Tnx 4 spending d day with me...." removed the emotional and mushy words from the message.

Funny yet sad. But then thats about it.. if not for all those things I wouldn't be here where I am today...

Thank you so much dear friend.