lovefull

It's hard to keep feelings at bay, though you try to keep everything as it is. Somehow, unexpected things tend to happen. Must have been coincidences but then I never believed in such. Oh I hate this part. The part wherein you feel like your head is going to explode. Much like your heart pounding very hard on your chest as if it wants to just go out in the open.

I wonder if she has read it. I wonder if she knew. I wonder of all them in the list, why have i choosen you. Answers are hard to get by, but i know this one is true. Somehow this feeling have developed into much more than friendship, and with that I am experiencing a great deal of hardship.

Sometimes I feel up, sometimes I feel down. Much like a wheel, a wheel sized like that of 1 peso coin. I haven't felt like this before. It was never like this in the past. Yes, there's always a hint of fear but not like this one. It was my first time to do something like that and I never thought that I would end up in an unexplainable state of mind. Not confused but that feeling of fear, excitement, gratefulness, determined, hopeful, happy, gloomy, and awkwardness mixed inside you that you couldn't sleep well or even do the simplest of things.

These stuffs could really make you crazy. Good thing I have Someone to keep things in order. With Him by my side, whatever happens.. I know, it's all for the best. I offer it all to Him.

Peace be with me.. and all of you too.