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Hey I'm home. It's been a while. Hmm. 2 years was it? A lot has changed, our house seemed to be smaller or was I just away for too long. I could see the damaged caused by the storms that ravaged our humble home during those times I was away. Everything seems so different, yet still there are those things that haven't changed a bit. The weathers still the same, raining while the sun is scorchingly shining or an alternate exchange of rain and warm rays of the sun (now, imagine that..).

Papa is still the same old grumpy dad who blurts out uneccessary and unpleasant words if you've committed the slightest mistake. Good thing me and my siblings were able to withstand the test of time and understand him for who he is. Even with such flaws, we love him very much. Another thing that hasn't change was mom and dad's way with each other. I know I could still do something about it but somehow how come I feel that I could only do things up to this point only. Though I'm still trying, it's a  bit sad to imagine that there were too little improvements about them. But then, I guess I should look more into the positive things right now. Well, atleast were all here for Christmas. The whole family is together. And I'm not missing in action just like for the past two years.

Thank God for all the blessings. Very grateful for my family.

lovefull

It's hard to keep feelings at bay, though you try to keep everything as it is. Somehow, unexpected things tend to happen. Must have been coincidences but then I never believed in such. Oh I hate this part. The part wherein you feel like your head is going to explode. Much like your heart pounding very hard on your chest as if it wants to just go out in the open.

I wonder if she has read it. I wonder if she knew. I wonder of all them in the list, why have i choosen you. Answers are hard to get by, but i know this one is true. Somehow this feeling have developed into much more than friendship, and with that I am experiencing a great deal of hardship.

Sometimes I feel up, sometimes I feel down. Much like a wheel, a wheel sized like that of 1 peso coin. I haven't felt like this before. It was never like this in the past. Yes, there's always a hint of fear but not like this one. It was my first time to do something like that and I never thought that I would end up in an unexplainable state of mind. Not confused but that feeling of fear, excitement, gratefulness, determined, hopeful, happy, gloomy, and awkwardness mixed inside you that you couldn't sleep well or even do the simplest of things.

These stuffs could really make you crazy. Good thing I have Someone to keep things in order. With Him by my side, whatever happens.. I know, it's all for the best. I offer it all to Him.

Peace be with me.. and all of you too.