lovefull

This weekend before christmas I made a set of love letters. Wrote one for mom and another for dad.  I did make another for a good friend, but that wasn't about love. And that's another story. :p

I know most of us has their own wishes and hopes this Christmas. I too have one, as much as I would really like to know if she's the one.. but there are other important matters than my personal needs. It was just then that I realized that I've been asking for too much for myself. So this time, I'm not wishing for myself.

I don't know why it took me so long to act. You see I don't have that "perfect" family. But somehow I'm doing my best to have an ideal one. My parents have not been in good terms for quite a while now. I don't know when it started. I don't know the details. (Probably because I've been gone from home for too long now). I was hoping they could fix it on their own since they're all grown ups already. But that doesn't seem to be the case, I know.. I should have acted sooner. So here I am, with these letters for them. Expressing myself, my thoughts, my wish and my feelings that I've kept about their issues for almost some years now (I really can't remember how many years it has been).

I also gave them a copy of the movie FIREPROOF for them to watch this christmas and just to make them realize what they're missing. I do hope and pray that somehow, they would rekindle the flame of love between them. That they may understand each other and bring back the old times of how they used to be.. and with that celebrating every special occasions together as a family.. with us.. their children.

(I you have no idea about the movie "Fireproof" then I strongly suggest that you grab a copy now. A must see movie. It would definitely change the way of how you see things about Faith, Life, Love and Relationships. Don't forget to grab a hanky while watching the movie )

Isn't it a blast to see people with happy faces around amusement parks? Not to mention those thrilled, afraid, screaming and somehow undistiguishable looks around them when they're having their time of their lives.

I had a great time today. Definitely worth it. But I must have left my heart at one of those rides. I dunno what it's called. The one with the boat swinging.. Each swing, I mean fall somehow literally left my heart in the air. haha. So I thought that I would just have to leave it there. Probably get it back next time when everything's falling into the right place.

Have you ever felt that you're needed? No, Not that normal feeling you're needed because you have obligations or you should be here or there at this exact time. I'm talking about that feeling you could give someone that feeling she's safe by your side, or that you'll be there whatever happens, that you'd protect her no matter what. Yeah that feeling.. that feeling that I've never felt for quite a long time since.. well, not recently. It's nice to know that I am still able to give someone that feeling of security. Though it lasted for just a moment. A minute or two perhaps.. Still how I wish I could give that feeling for eternity.. and I'd do anything to experience that feeling again.

Today, I saw a different side of me. How others see my worth. And the value of how it feels to be there for someone. Nice! That's all that I could say.. for now.