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Finally, for the first time took the ring off my finger. The same ring lyn gave me to match the ring that i gave to her way back then. Don't remember when and I don't remember the occasion either. The only thing i could remember is that it came from the bottom of my heart.

I wont deny the fact that it brings back memories.. happy ones and painful ones alike. It was indeed something.. until today.

Well, It used to fit my finger perfectly but now, it feels loose. Don't know what it implied. My finger must have lost some weight i guess. haha.

It was the same ring I held on too when I had my wisdom tooth operation. Thinking that the emotional pain is way greater than the physical pain I was having that time when my dentist took my wisdom tooth off.

The ring which friends used to tease me when they found out i had one.. (i never wore any jewelry/accessories even watches till that ring came.) The so called "pseudo-engagement" ring I'd say. The ring which i grasp during those sleepless and tearful nights.

I don't know what made me keep it till today. Probably thought of it as a reminder. Something to remind me of my mistakes. Of the things that I should have done. To remind me of who i am. Guess it was part of being a fool.. but then I realized that it's too much. Scars left from those wounds are enough to remind of who i am.. and whom i should be.. and that is to be myself. This is the way it should be.. no excess baggage from the past. None whatsoever. The scars are more than enough.