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I never felt this way before. Yes, it's true. I don't know what got into me but it's just that I've always been looking forward to sundays. Maybe it's just that I don't get to go to the office. And I have an awesome appointment with God to attend to..

Well, today i woke up abit more energized than usual. Woke up at six and left home for church at around 630. Arrived at the feast way too early. I think there were less than 30 people inside. The session went smoothly. Enlightening as usual. The only difference was today.. when we were about to go to the part of the mass wherein you say "peace be with you" to all those around you.. the priest said something, instead of just saying peace be with you, think of someone who have wronged you. And think of that person as the one beside you. Then say to him/her "peace be with you.. I forgive you.." I said those words with someone in mind. I don't think she may have wronged me in any way but i felt that i had to say those words because I can't hide the fact that i was hurt. So I said, to the one beside me.. "peace be with you, I forgive you" but deep down inside me.. what i really meant to say was "peace be with you, I forgive you... and i hope you've forgiven me too.."

Btw, the one sitting beside me caught my attention. not writing much details about this one. hehe. but I'm hoping to see her again next sunday.. sana. =)

After that, had one of those one on one sessions with myself. I usually hang out at this coffee shop after church. There's something about the place that just gets into me. Must have been the fact that there aren't that much people on the shop at that particular time. And i just find the place serene.. In some way..

As I prepare to spend time with myself. I sat down on this lofty seat. Where i could feel the warmth of the sun in her gleaming rays through the glass window beside me.  and found myself ready, in the most comfortable spot wherein i could hear the gentle and lovely music playing.. and smell the aroma of freshly brewed coffee in the air..  well, those things just sooths me in a very special way.

So,  with a glass of ice cold coffee at the table, this good book in one hand, and a pen on the other. I begin to let time pass me by. With no worries, but just that blissful feeling inside me as I enjoy drinking my coffee and read this book.. often times pausing for a moment. Thinking, and understanding myself.. And taking down important and interesting notes that i find amusing or interesting as i go through the book.. And to tell you, I'm not the type of reader who hasten reading a book so that he could read the next one in line. I am just merely trying to read slowly.. understand and reflect on thoughts about what i read.

I don't know what people might think of how i spend my sundays but everything has changed since the 1st sunday of february. Well, call me shallow. But this is simplest way i could think of to spend and take care of that moment This is how i cope up with reality..