lovefull

Crappy work load. Slavedriver of a boss. What else?.. to many issues in life just pouring down on me or yet just like a splash of a pail of water right at my face.

Tired of all the things happening. Been wishing to spend all my remaining leaves in one long vacation.. hoping to be with her. But then, Both the long vacation and being with her is impossible.. uh.. wait. haven't tried to do that.. and not tried to ask her out... there still might be hope for this fool..

There's really no point of working hard enough anymore. Too much work load these days and overtime pays are not worth much. Tax eats away your hard earned additional income from overtime like cookie monster biting through his favorite box of cookies. I feel like i'm working my ass out there and it's not really worth it,. I know, because i lost the sole reason why i'm working hard to earn that dough. Ironic isn't it. Here you are working trying to save up for something yet my work "could" have been the reason why you lost that something special. Oh. I put " on could because i wasn't sure about that. Was it my work? Or it was me all along.. thinking if it's  my poor planning and scheduling ability plus the stubborness due to restlessness and stress (no point to justify / reason out)..

Just remembered something.. I'm not that much of a fan regarding tagalog movies.. especially romance and chick flicks ones. But then this movie hit me like a brick in the head. I don't know if it was the 1st or the 2nd but it was sarah and john loyd. Well, i hate to say this but the thing about the movie is i could somehow pretty much relate. With the guy having all those responsibilities at work and other stuffs and not having time enough time for her love one. And the girl giving everything all she got and might be thinking about why is she the only one having that spare time.. talk about one hell of a story. haha.

And still about the movie.. these words/lines really caught my attention..

(alam ko.. pag nagmahal ka walang sukatan.. walang "mas". kasi kung magsusukatan at magssukatan lang tayo.. palaging walang magmamahal. laging may sosobra.. may mag kukulang. di na sila mag papantay. E kung ganun lang ng ganun e walang ng papasa sayo noh! Kahit na ako pa..)

Totoo. Never ever say I love you more. Mahirap. Di kayo magpapang abot. No one is gonna be good enough for you pagnagkataon..

Kaya ako.. ang masasabi ko lang?? hmm... I loved you first.