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tagal na rin nung huli akong nagsulat d2... so.. balik ulet ako d2?

lately... im doing great... except on thesis part.. isang unit nalng tlga... pag tapos nito... d ko na alam mangyayari.. ggraduate malamang.. other than that.. who knows...

anu na nga ba mga nangyari sa nakaraan? mga naalala ko lang.. umiyak.. nagsisi.. nabigo.. ngumiti.. tumawa.. at natuwa..

somehow, i feel like i'm blessed to have someone like her.. dunno when it started.. it just came up.. right now... iniisip ko pa kung ano ggwin ko.. binawi ko yung sinabi ko... thinking that it would be the best thing to do right now.. masyado magulo para sa kanya.. hay... ok lang

 masya ako dahil natutuwa ako sa kanya.. natutuwa ako dahil masaya sya... kung pede lang sana ganito nalang lage.. kung pede lang..

ano pa ba masasabi ko... alam ko marami syang problema.. how i wish i could do something to solve her problems.. hehe.. anu pa ba meron sa kanya? haha prangka.. sa sobrang pranka nagugulat na lang ako sa mga naisasagot ko sa mga tanong nya..

sensya na.. pag nabasa mo to.. sensya kung nagalala ka.. at tska sinabi ko tulog na ako.. ayan tapusin ko lang tapos tulog na rin me..

haha.. naalala ko na nmn.. "understanding reality takes patience..."
there is something in that line.. hehe.. yoko na sabhin kung ano meron sa linya...

lovefull

 ang ganda ng buwan kagabi.. ang liwanag walang clouds.. thanks for sharing the view.. at sana makakuha ng brochure si lianne... hhahaa...

lovefull

The night seems so cold. Beside from the heavy rain pouring down on my window pane, i could only hear silence.

It feels like i'm on the hotspot. So many things to do in so little time. Could i do it in time? Might as well try.

bah.. nothing coming inside my head.. nothing much to write today.. woke up past lunchtime.. continued on my thesis. still..

Was that really her? she seems to be timid today. And that made me wonder, so many things bothering her? or maybe.. she's just tired.

say it now

if you have a tender message,
or a loving word to say,
dont wait til you forget it,
but whisper it today..

 the tender words unspoken,
the letter never sent,
the long forgotten messages,
the wealth of love unspent.

for these some hearts are breaking,
for these some loved ones wait,
then gve them what they're needing,
before it is too late...

lovefull

had so much trouble for one day.. thesis? tehsis? ethsis? hetsis? sisthe? isseth? theiss? thises? ethiss? sithes? got many suggestions coming out from our thesis adviser, hoping i could finish it in time.. haha.. oops. what now?

had a great dinner.. haha.. tummy full for the night. :p I thank God for all the blessings that i had.  

been having some trouble on my cellphone.. hahaha.. too many messages.. pls delete some :p.. i tried deleting and passed through some past messages.. funny to think that i forgot to delete such messages.. or was i intending to keep those.. (Anung wag? Baliw kba? D ka mkauwi. 8am pa. D m lam san ka stay. Panung wag? b-( gus2 m?)

I also had a hard time deciphering codes from one of her lovers.. and finally.. eureka!!! i got it. nah.. my guess was right.. it has something to do about her.. i kinda envy the guy, he has gutz to right such things even though she doesnt even know it..

right now.. i kinda felt sorry for myself.. i could have said what she needed to hear.. but why can't i? then had myself thinking all over again.. but one line keeps popping out of my head.. "i could never love again, the way that i loved you.."

haha.. maybe she's right.. when the time comes i could tell her all about it

lovefull

This hit me when i was reading some ads. Most of you may have read it. And that made me wonder.. i must have felt too much fear..

taken from a newspaper..

Love is a gamble, they say.  It is like getting into a dark room without really knowing what to expect. There are no promises here. Love is only as good as it is felt. The moment the feeling dies, then love withers with it. It is a risk everyone takes, for without it, there is really no chance of experiencing how beautiful love can be.

I have always said time and again that the people who are ready to love are the people who are ready to be hurt because of it. They are the ones ready to take the chance and fight for what they feel. They are the ones who put fears behind their longing for companionship. They are the ones who are ready to accept the uncertainty of love and ready to taje the promise it brings. There is no reward to those who fear being in love. It is the mere feeling of love that gives hope to many of us and it is this hope that will see us through until we reach the end of our journey where we find the love that will last us our lifetime. 

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The day was normal as it had begun. As usual, busy as hell. So many things to think of.  So many conversations. So many questions to ask.

Had a nice conversation with a friend. a very nice conversation indeed. We talked about this girl.. This very nice girl. Funny to think that we shared the same opinion. Because of that conversation, sa tingin ko.. mas nakilala ko pa ung girl ng mas mabuti. At least somethings about her.

Today, mom called on the phone. Wondering how i was and how im doing with school. She even asked if i have a girlfriend now. Of course i answered the truth. Then suddenly she said.. "may kasalanan ka saken.. may nakalimutan ka ata..?" then i was wondering what it was till my siblings shouted on the phone.. Birthday ni Mama..
i went silent. I had nothin' to say.. was sorry that i forgot.. and greeted her happy birthday.. I said sorry. Then she said its ok, just dont forget to text how your doing. After the conversation. I texted her, saying sorry again that i forgot and i'll make it up to her when i come back home to see her. Bid her good night. Ingatz and a warm i love you. Sorry ulet ma.. D na po mauulit. ingat po kayo dyan nila papa.

On the other hand..

i asked that girl if she was referring to me in her writings. but then, she wont answer. tried asking her.. hmm. twice or trice i think. but same ol results. don't want to post what i said. as what she said.. if she was referring to me that is.. it's between you and me.. but then if it's not me.. then now what?........

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It rained hard a while ago. And that made me remember somethings. Went out to feel the rain. Felt its presence, i felt cold but didn't mind.  Doesn't matter. Maybe I'll just keep it all inside.

Tuwing umuulan... kung pwede lang sana.. nais ko sanang makapiling ka..
mahawakan ang iyong buhok.. mayakap ka.. at mapahid ang mga luha sa iyong mga mata.. kung pwede lang..

Naalala ko tuloy to... 

Pagmasdan ang ulan,
Unti-unting pumapatak sa mga halama't mga bulaklak
Pagmasdan ang dilim,
Unti-unting bumabalot sa buong paligid t'wing umuulan

Kasabay ng ulan bumubuhos ang 'yong ganda,
Kasabay rin ng hanging kumakanta

Maari bang huwag ka na
Sa piling ko'y lumisan pa hanggang ang hangi't ula'y tumila na

Buhos na ulan, aking mundo'y lunuring tuluyan
Tulad ng pag-agos mo,
'Di mapipigil ang puso kong nagliliyab
Pag-ibig ko'y umaapaw,
Damdamin ko'y humihiyaw sa tuwa
Tuwing umuulan at kapiling ka

Pagmasdan ang ulan,
Unti-unting tumitila
Ikaw ri'y magpapaalam na
Maari bang minsan pa, mahagkan ka't maiduyan pa
Sakbibi ka't ulan lamang ang saksi

Minsan pa ulan bumuhos ka't h'wag nang tumigil pa
Hatid mo ma'y bagyo, dalangin ito ng puso kong sumasamo
Pag-ibig ko'y umaapaw,
Damdamin ko'y humihiyaw sa tuwa
Tuwing umuulan at kapiling ka
(Oooohhh)

Maari bang minsan pa, mahagkan ka't maiduyan pa
Sakbibi ka't ulan lamang ang saksi

Buhos na ulan, aking mundo'y lunuring tuluyan
Tulad ng pag-agos mo,
'Di mapipigil ang puso kong nagliliyab
Pag-ibig ko'y umaapaw,
Damdamin ko'y humihiyaw sa tuwa
Tuwing umuulan at kapiling ka

Minsan pa ulan bumuhos ka't h'wag nang tumigil pa
Hatid mo ma'y bagyo, dalangin ito ng puso kong sumasamo
Pag-ibig ko'y umaapaw,
Damdamin ko'y humihiyaw sa tuwa
Tuwing umuulan at kapiling ka

lovefull

They argued..

He gave her roses d nxt day..

Chocolates the day after..

Then he asked her to dinner by d beach under d stars.

The girl was touched and asked, "is this ur way of saying ur sorry?"

He replied, "no, this is my way of saying goodbye."

She said i'd save it so i posted it here.. still there are somethings to add.. more words to say.. more feelings to express.. I wasn't drunk last night.. but then.. i sent her something.. d ko alam kung ano sasabihin ng tao. Ang mahalaga malaman mo na iniibig kita. mahal kita hndi dahil un ang tama.. kundi dahil un ang totoo.. (no comment)

Dunno why? I wanted to be drunk but then.. somehow, someone inside tells me not to.. all i could think about was her.. maybe she would be angry.. but that wasn't it.. she might get worried.. and i don't like that.. so i just slept the night away..

i woke up at 5am.. was really planning meeting her.. a surprise maybe.. and breakfast if ever.. but i felt asleep again.. the next thing i know.. it was 2pm in the afternoon.. lost that oppurtunity.

Greeted dad happy fathers day.. guess what he replied.. haha..
sakin nalang cguro un.. :p

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So many thoughts running in my mind lately.. The thing is.. It happened.. damn.. i really hate it when she cries. blah. she's hurting so much and i was thinking maybe i could have been the reason why she's crying.

i can't think of anything more to post right now.. uhmm wait..

 to any who reads this.. esp. girls..

question: what is the next best thing for you?

lovefull

I dont know what to say.. I dont know why i am this way. Seems i have nothing to write today. Yesterday was great. Today was even better. And i'm thankful for everything. Nothing more to add.. I think i would end this day with a poem. For you..

 True Love

 I do believe the Lord above
created you for me to love
He Picked you out from all the rest
Because He knows i love you best

i have a heart and that is true
for it has gone from me to you
so care for it like what i did
for now it belongs to you, my sweet

when leaves of trees begin to fall
when waves of water rest on the shore
and when im the first to rest on the soil
remember sweet, i love you more

if i go to heaven and you're not there
i'll wait for you in the golden stairs
if you're not there on judgement day
i'll know you went the other way

If i have to return my angel wings
my golden harp and everything
to prove to you my love is true
i'll go to hell to be with you..

i love you. 

lovefull

Yesterday was one of the happiest day of my life. I only wanted a small sign. But then, i got what i didn't expect. For her, it may seem like a little thing but for me.. somehow it feels like it was the greatest thing. You might be thinking, what is this guy talking about.. but then it doesn't matter. She answered the question. What is the next best thing? And i'll keep that answer forever.

We had a misunderstanding a while ago. I admit, it was my bad. Didn't know such things could make a small understanding between us. Still thinking about the past. But now i just realized that its different. I know somethings may seem little and doesn't matter to you but for me, those little things could be the greatest and probably the most important. I was late to realize that you could be feeling the same too. Said sorry and probably did the most craziest thing that i have thought just to please her. Although i'm tired, it ended up to be the one the nicest, sweetest nights that i would have imagined.

 hoy matulog ka na! alam ko andyan ka pa.. hehe..