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When I'm wiser and I'm older... sigh.

I knew things like this would happen. Didn't came up to be prepared for such series of unfortunate events.
I'd like to rant about everything but I guess I'll probably keep it to myself for now. (hmm.. this seems familiar..)
Anyhow, So tell me.. How does it feel to sleep outside. I wonder.. I curse myself for thinking thoughts of sleeping
in the pavement. Yes that cold cement lying face down swimming in the pool of my own blood. That for sure would
let me sleep, i just don't know when will i wake up from that one.

Is it me? Or is it really me? Sometimes I don't get to realize things that are happening to me and the people around me. Guess the x did quite a good description out of me. Oblivious and Insensitive, two words.. just enough to make me cry to sleep at night. Could someone send me a let me know note in times that I feel to do something stupid? As much as I 'd like to do something about it, the other side seems unresponsive. I feel like i'm just the one doing the effort to understand the things happening. I mean, shouldn't be part of the relationship be somehow related to people having their daily conversations? argh. Wish I had those that mind reading powers, so that I could just understand how others feel and how they want to be treated. I really don't want to play guessing games and might as well just give it to me pronto.

I'm no guy when it comes to this.